I want spring me to be proud of February me

We're in the middle of a historic snowstorm. Schools and activities cancelled. Roads are still unplowed. Neighbors without power. Clients unable to connect with everyone on their team.
I've been pretty out of sorts.

Which is a little funny, because presence is a thing I love to talk about. Letting go of the illusion of control. And here I am, walking past snow-covered windows, making sure flashlights are charged and candles on hand, unsure what to do with a Monday that looks nothing like I planned.

Instead of pivoting gracefully the way I'd encourage someone else to do, I have found myself frustrated and stuck. But then I remembered: That's actually the lesson.

Presence isn't having it figured out. It's coming back, again and again, to what matters most right now. Gratitude. Safety. Health. Being a good neighbor. Supporting my clients. Letting my kids just have a snow day. Patience for the plans that got wiped clean by something completely out of my control.

Disruption, when we let it, can make room for creativity, for slowing down, for showing up for each other in ways our normal routines don't allow.

When the weather turns warm, I want to carry these days as a reminder of that. I want spring me to be proud of February me.

For whatever storm you're weathering right now, literal or otherwise, I hope you can just trust that whatever it brings up in you is right.